I grew up in similar homes as other Mormon kids in Utah. I was raised by dependent and devoted parents who weren't necessarily authoritarian but weren't permissive either. We believed in many things the rest of the universe seemed to become confused over.
We don't believe in drinking alcohol or doing drugs. We don't believe in showing too much skin and dressing immodestly. We believe that families can be forever and that death isn't the end. One of the things that seemed to always stand out to me and many others...is that we believe in waiting to have sex until marriage.
Living in Utah, not participating in sexual activities wasn't a big deal to me. Since there are a lot of Mormons in Utah, it was widely acceptable to practice abstinence. When high school hit me, sex was on my mind and in my thoughts. I hit puberty. It seemed like a wave of over-excited hormones came upon me and I suddenly became a lot more interested in sex.
The first sex scene I saw was on The Notebook. The first song I heard about sex was by Tim McGraw & Faith Hill, Let's Make Love. I remember singing it around my house when I was a kid, my parents always telling me to stop. I never really understood why. Media played a huge role in me becoming more interested about sex. I began constantly thinking about sharing that special moment with someone I truly loved. I always knew there was something special about finding someone you love, sharing that intimate sacred moment with them, and being with them forever. even after death.
Though it always interested me, my goal had always been to marry a worthy man in the Mormon temple and to not participate in any sexual activities until I was legally & lawfully wedded. At the age of 16 years old, a boy came and swept me off my feet. He was charming, flirtatious, and especially romantic. Boy served a 2-year LDS mission and I waited for him. When he returned, I was sure I would marry him.
To put in simple and brief words, boy and I dated for over a year. I found out boy had a heavy addiction to pornography. After trying to work with him through it and try to get his addiction conquered, he began to try and perform the things he was watching on the internet with me. He told me that if I loved him, I could show him by having sex with him. It was completely devastating and hurtful. Fortunately, I was strong. I withheld. After many breakups, then getting back together, and wanting the heartache to finally come to a halt, we broke up. for good. and we didn't get back together.
Sex was still on my mind. To be honest, I believe it's on every virgin teen's mind. After feeling complete heartache and pain, I was still excited for that day to come when I would experience that special moment with the man I loved. I couldn't wait to experience the love country songs talk about and the kind of love chick flicks always represent. I needed the type of love that gave me constant butterflies & allowed me to grin during lip lock because of how surreal it was.
Lucky lucky me, I found him. And I loved him with my whole heart. We got married in the Salt Lake City temple to be together for time and all eternity. We got married to start a family. Sex was on my mind a little, of course it was. I couldn't wait to marry him. I couldn't wait to show him how much I loved him on our wedding night.
We don't believe in drinking alcohol or doing drugs. We don't believe in showing too much skin and dressing immodestly. We believe that families can be forever and that death isn't the end. One of the things that seemed to always stand out to me and many others...is that we believe in waiting to have sex until marriage.
Living in Utah, not participating in sexual activities wasn't a big deal to me. Since there are a lot of Mormons in Utah, it was widely acceptable to practice abstinence. When high school hit me, sex was on my mind and in my thoughts. I hit puberty. It seemed like a wave of over-excited hormones came upon me and I suddenly became a lot more interested in sex.
The first sex scene I saw was on The Notebook. The first song I heard about sex was by Tim McGraw & Faith Hill, Let's Make Love. I remember singing it around my house when I was a kid, my parents always telling me to stop. I never really understood why. Media played a huge role in me becoming more interested about sex. I began constantly thinking about sharing that special moment with someone I truly loved. I always knew there was something special about finding someone you love, sharing that intimate sacred moment with them, and being with them forever. even after death.
Though it always interested me, my goal had always been to marry a worthy man in the Mormon temple and to not participate in any sexual activities until I was legally & lawfully wedded. At the age of 16 years old, a boy came and swept me off my feet. He was charming, flirtatious, and especially romantic. Boy served a 2-year LDS mission and I waited for him. When he returned, I was sure I would marry him.
To put in simple and brief words, boy and I dated for over a year. I found out boy had a heavy addiction to pornography. After trying to work with him through it and try to get his addiction conquered, he began to try and perform the things he was watching on the internet with me. He told me that if I loved him, I could show him by having sex with him. It was completely devastating and hurtful. Fortunately, I was strong. I withheld. After many breakups, then getting back together, and wanting the heartache to finally come to a halt, we broke up. for good. and we didn't get back together.
Sex was still on my mind. To be honest, I believe it's on every virgin teen's mind. After feeling complete heartache and pain, I was still excited for that day to come when I would experience that special moment with the man I loved. I couldn't wait to experience the love country songs talk about and the kind of love chick flicks always represent. I needed the type of love that gave me constant butterflies & allowed me to grin during lip lock because of how surreal it was.
Lucky lucky me, I found him. And I loved him with my whole heart. We got married in the Salt Lake City temple to be together for time and all eternity. We got married to start a family. Sex was on my mind a little, of course it was. I couldn't wait to marry him. I couldn't wait to show him how much I loved him on our wedding night.
